Through the Glass Dimly

I love how blogging forces me to seek God about the issue I'm dealing with. The search for a better insurance plan continues. The problem with ours is that its a "Limited Benefit Plan". This means that instead of having a deductible and the insurance paying 80% while you are responsible for 20%, you end up paying the majority of the medical costs and the insurance picks up only $1500 for major medical expenses. Because it is so limited, you can't make any deals with them. All my doctors will accept this plan, but it just ends up costing me out of pocket more than it costs them. Now I have come to another hang up in finding an Individual Health Insurance plan (my office isn't part of a group plan, and the insurance offered to Josh at his job offers a group plan, but its the worst, as we now know). I can get on a plan through my office, but the Insurance company they use will not cover my heart at all. I do have the option of finding my own plan and my employer wil...

I started to write an update, and I knew what I was going to write. As I was about to make my way this way to write my thoughts down, I was reminded, "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all." God graciously reminded me that my attitude today was not for His glory. " Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is --his good, pleasing and perfect will." Romans 12:2 So I went, yet again, to my old friend Spurgeon and was comforted (yet again) by his words which always point me back to Christ. " ...The holy rest which springs out of faith in the Lord Jesus also greatly helps a man when he is ill. ... Let us not be overcome with sudden expectation of death the moment we have a finger-ache, but let us rather expect that we may have to work on through a considerable length of days.... The truest lengthening o...

Here's a word from Spurgeon on Psalm 23 that was encouraging to me today. Psalm 23 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. "But the verse is equally applicable to agonies of spirit in the midst of life. Some of us, like Paul, die daily through a tendency to gloom of soul. Bunyan puts the Valley of the Shadow of Death far earlier in the pilgrimage than the river which rolls at the foot of the celestial hills. We have some of us traversed the dark and dreadful defile of "the shadow of death" several times, and we can bear witness that the Lord alone enabled us to bear up amid its wild thought, its mysterious horrors, its terrible depressions. The Lord has sustained us and kept us above all real fear of evil, even when our spirit has been overwhelmed. We have been pressed and oppressed, but yet we have lived, for we have felt the presence of the Great Shepherd and h...

I have a prayer request. I've been having trouble with my heart for the last three months. The medication that I take every day hasn't been regulating my tachycardia problem well enough, and I have gone to the ER 3 times in the last 3 months. Twice they had to give me an IV of some medicine that stopped my heart and restarted it. Since then I found a cardiologist in Houston, who says I need to get a procedure done called an ablation. They go in through a vein with a wire and camera and sensors and travel to your heart and find out what area of your heart is causing the electrical glitch that causes the tachycardia episode. Then they zap that tissue that causes the problem. The procedure should totally cure the problem that I have been struggling with for 13 years. However, our insurance looks like they will only cover maybe 1500 of the 26000 cost, if any at all. Please pray that God would provide a way to pay for this procedure, as it isn't really an option to not have it ...